Find Someone.

Hey guys!

So, about an hour ago, I was writing a very different blog post. It was depressing and reflective, the latter being good, but I really wasn't in a good state mentally. I had been a looking back on old pictures of friendships and I got really sad because I definitely did not have a good relationship with these friends... I was reflecting too much and I got swirled into this ridiculously damaging mental state, writing about my sadness.... I don't know, it was hard. I was sending a good message out saying what I'd learned from my experience with these friends... but it was really hard for me to write about without getting even more depressed. But then something changed. I was working on the draft of that blog post, one I probably will never post after this, but mid-way through, I get a call from my boyfriend... he was outside my house to visit me from college. I haven't seen him in months, but it felt like years... long distance relationships are hard, man.... but that's not the point.

He's my best friend. I'll openly admit that. I have a lot of best friends, like my friend groups and everything, and they're amazing, but I've never had a connection as mentally and emotionally amazing and beneficial as this. Sometimes, I don't even like to use the term 'boyfriend," because I place a lot more value on the term "best friend." Anyway, the story goes on. He surprises me and we catch up, not because we haven't been talking on the phone and FaceTime, but because it's always nicer to talk in person. So we talk for about an hour and throughout our basic, general conversation, I grow happier and happier, less stressed about my depression I had literally been enveloped in 20 minutes before, and I no longer want to finish that first draft of the blog. He cheers me up no matter what's going on, and I'm so grateful for that. I'm with him and I'm calm--it's as simple as that.

So here's my message to you. Find someone--for yourself, your mental health, your sanity. It doesn't have to be a romantic relationship, but you need someone to be there with and be 100% comfortable around. It's hard to find, but it's so so so worth it. Everyone is stressed right now, no matter what about, and to find that safe haven is so helpful and definitely needed. I urge you, find someone you can call home if you haven't already. Don't choose someone who's needy and manipulative. Don't let someone brainwash you into thinking you've found your home. You need to be careful who you choose, because there's a lot of not good people in the world that could potentially be toxic to you, but that should never stop your from anxiously and desperately looking for that one person to share your daily life with. To give all your problems to and let then help and take care of you--as long as you're willing to do the same for them. Please, find someone to care about you. It's so necessary. It's so worth it.

Much love,

Noelle