Reflections from a 3AM Mind

So I've been desperately trying to go to sleep for too many hours, hour, but in that, I've been reflecting. Let's see what comes from it, shall we?

I've been unfollowing on Instagram, and hiding on Facebook, a lot of people recently. Mostly people who are just purely irrelevant to my life as of now. Nothing against any of them, honestly, but if I haven't had a real conversation with you in 7 years, why should I care who went to your grad party? I've grown up, and so have you, in two very opposite directions. That's okay! 

But why did my mind think it was normal to keep around so many people in my social media life? If I ran into them at the grocery store, it's almost guaranteed I would hide from them to avoid conversation, so why do I care to see what they did Saturday afternoon? I don't know, maybe I like feeling like I have more friends than I do... but I honestly have so many friends??? Lol like I'm not popular by any means, but I have a very solid group of best friends. Maybe I keep these people around to see how their life turned out compared to mine.... but everyone only ever puts their best self out there on Instagram so why would I torture myself with thinking they're better than me??? They're not, they're just only posting good things. Makes sense. I do the same thing. 

I'm just glad I finally have the sense to "delete" then from my life. On Facebook, I never unfriendly them, because at one point we were real friends, but why do I care about their baby nephew? Not worth my time. On Instagram, I realized I was following quite a few bullies of mine from elementary school.... WHY?? I don't need to focus on the past. I moved for a reason! (Look at my last post to see what I'm talking about.) I don't need to do this to myself.  

Be honest with yourself. Shiuld you be doing some purging in your friends list? 

Alright, my brain might finally be tired enough to sleep. Let's hope. Goodnight! 

Love,

Noelle.